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The Power of Positivity

I have recently realized that I don't deal so well with major changes in my life. If I'm already stressed, even small changes give me major anxiety. For example, our family had three cars break down during one week in December. I did not take it too well :D My mom always tells me I have a tendency to see the worst in every situation. I'm working on that... Being negative and anxious takes everything out of me. I get exhausted in a matter of minutes, because of how consuming it is to be angry or sad about something I simply have no control over. Not being able to do anything about whatever it is that's bothering me just makes me more anxious.

So what's the point?

I don't want you to think of me as someone who's just plain telling you to stop feeling sad or anxious and start feeling happy. I have absolutely no credentials to do anything of the sort, and I think we all know that anyone who's saying they just stopped being negative and started being positive is full of bullshit. Life doesn't work that way. It takes time.


All I can say is that I'm trying. I have the voice of reason in the back of my head telling me that negativity gets me nowhere. I'd like to think that I'm learning to lean more toward positivity especially with my Meniere's disease. Here's the thing: there's no cure, and this disease sucks, BUT in my case it's well under control and I rarely get vertigo anymore. Sometimes I feel slightly unbalanced, and my ears are louder than the environment I'm in, I don't hear well in crowds, and occasionally my brain feels foggy and all that, but this is all something I have very little control over or none at all. So I have learned, over time, to kind of stop caring. When issues come up, I address them, but I try not to let them take over me. I know a lot of you experience Meniere's disease much worse than I do, and it probably takes a lot more effort to keep up a good attitude.

To be honest, I don't understand the over-powering negativity some people possess over themselves and their situations. If you're already dealing with something that has changed your life for the worse, whether it be Meniere's disease or something else, why make it even more worse by not allowing yourself to see the good things in life? Believe it or not, there's something good in your situation. It could be a new person you meet along the way, a new perspective on life, a whole new direction for your life, maybe you're able to help someone in a similar situation and be an encouragement to them, or maybe you've learned to appreciate the things you already have in a new way, or you will learn. If you're feeling like you're in the worst place in your life, then it can only be uphill from there, right?

I have never felt Meniere's disease ruined my life. I will write a whole post dedicated to how this disease has made my life a little better, and if you're someone who feels like this disease is the worst thing that's ever happened to you, I sincerely hope you will feel better about it some day. I can't promise you that it will happen, but I get inspired by other people's strength. A little part of me dares to hope that this blog will improve someone's day, even a little bit.


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